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| babbling time.... |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|06:25 pm] |
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Christmas eve and I'm sitting in my dark room with just the glow of burning candles and this awfully bright computer screen. I'm waiting for Jeff to get done with family plans and come over. We've decided to exchange gifts at the stroke of midnight. Maybe I'll make hot cocoa with marshmellows.
It's been so long since I've updated or even glanced at this thing. I'm sorry for that. I guess there hasn't been too much to say. Time has been moving so fast that I almost feel as if I've missed something. I've basically been painting and taking photos the entire semester. I'm finding my spot as a painter and decided it's going to be my concentration.
I'm run-down and couldn't be happier that the semester is over and I have a month to calm myself down in preparation for the next one. I'm sure it will be equally insane. Part of me yearns for some simplicity rather than all of this craziness. However, I have been more productive that I ever have been and I realized that I really want to stick with the art thing.
Adrienne's home from France!!! I've been able to see her twice so far since she arrived. It's always awesome to see her and I can't describe how happy I am that she's back.
There's not much else to say I guess. As for Jeff and I, I can't believe it's almost been 2 years for us. It feels like yesterday that we started dating. It's crazy. I'm so happy here though in this thing called stability that I don't think I've ever experienced before.
I should get going....
more holiday stuff to do... |
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| two songs for you... |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|07:01 pm] |
Now that you found yourself losing your mind
Are you here again?
Finding that what you once thought was real
Is gone, and changing?
Now that you made yourself love me
Do you think I can change it in a day?
How can I place you above me?
Am I lying to you when I say
That I believe in you
I believe in you.
Coming to you at night I see my questions
I feel my doubts
Wishing that maybe in a year or two
We could laugh and let it all out
Now that you made yourself love me
Do you think I can change it in a day?
How can I place you above me?
Am I lying to you when I say
That I believe in you
I believe in you.
-Neil Young
They ask me how I feel
And if my love is real
And how I know I'll make it through.
And they, they look at me and frown,
They'd like to drive me from this town,
They don't want me around
'Cause I believe in you.
They show me to the door,
They say don't come back no more
'Cause I don't be like they'd like me to,
And I walk out on my own
A thousand miles from home
But I don't feel alone
'Cause I believe in you.
I believe in you even through the tears and the laughter,
I believe in you even though we be apart.
I believe in you even on the morning after.
Oh, when the dawn is nearing
Oh, when the night is disappearing
Oh, this feeling is still here in my heart.
Don't let me drift too far,
Keep me where you are
Where I will always be renewed.
And that which you've given me today
Is worth more than I could pay
And no matter what they say
I believe in you.
I believe in you when winter turn to summer,
I believe in you when white turn to black,
I believe in you even though I be outnumbered.
Oh, though the earth may shake me
Oh, though my friends forsake me
Oh, even that couldn't make me go back.
Don't let me change my heart,
Keep me set apart
From all the plans they do pursue.
And I, I don't mind the pain
Don't mind the driving rain
I know I will sustain
'Cause I believe in you.
-Bob Dylan |
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[Sep. 21st, 2004|06:33 pm] |
being sick is the worst.
only my forth week of class and i'm sick already. although, i was about due because i'm hardly ever sick.
anyway....i haven't updated in a while. i've been really busy and distracted. it's been a good month since i last updated though. there isn't anything else to say really... |
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[Aug. 26th, 2004|12:10 pm] |
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so i'm working on this logo for a garden center that my mom manages and it's kind of a pain in the ass.
school starts on monday, eeep. i want to go because i'm so bored here at home, but i know that once i get there the stress will begin, and i'll go completely insane. 18 credits this semester. good times, good times. thankfully they're mostly studio classes.
i've been such a slacker all summer. i was convinced that i would take a bunch of black and whites and then go spend a great deal of time on campus at the darkroom, but i'm really lazy so i didn't. ::sigh:: it's a shame too, Larry left me a full supply of chemicals to work with. perhaps when the semester starts i'll do something worth while on the side.
i'm super tired today, i should take a nap. then when i wake up i can sigh my design and send it off to Germany to be finalized for printing. i guess it's flattering to know that the owner wants my design on thousands of planters next summer.
adrienne is leaving in a week for France. eeeep. i don't know what i'll do without her. i'll just have to go visit. too bad funds are really low.
time to chill while i still can. :)
anyone wanna buy some funky jewelry?
later kids. |
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| i have a fat cat on my lap. |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|11:22 pm] |
i'm at mel's drinkin' whiskey and giggling.
it's good.
it's been a long time since we've done this. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|12:07 pm] |
Happy Birthday to Jeff!!
:)
I love you. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2004|05:09 pm] |
so i should have updated sooner, but i didn't because i knew that all i would write was some long-ass sappy, pitty me entry about how much things suck right now. that's the only reason why i didn't because i think that if i wait it out things will blow over. for the most part this is true. that's why i don't update anymore. i feel like a big burden and no one wants to read all that boring stuff anyway.
it's been a long week and weekend. parties on saturday, sunday, and monday. it was a game of lets see how drunk i can get on said days. i was good about it though. i know full well how depressed alcohol makes me and i wasn't about to ruin the whole weekend for everyone around me. i always seem to do that. silly me.
saturday i had a kick ass time at jeff's and got sloppy drunk and remained in control. i really feel like i'm becoming part of the group. it took a whole year and a half, but still, it's finally feeling okay.
sunday there was a party at jay and kristy's. i had a really good time there also. we (jeff and i) left to hike up high mountain, but got up to the top too late and missed the fireworks. the answer to that was jeff setting off his own. it was so beautiful up there, seeing all around for miles, i wanted to stay for a really long time. we're thinking about spending a nignt up there, just the two of us, sometime in the near future.
as for monday, party at craig's, and then i dropped jeff off at the apartment and went out with kate and some other folks.
i'm just being silly about stuff. kate, you know what i mean. sorry for talking your ears off about it, but i'm just so tired of what i am, and i really wonder if i'm a whole person, or just a fraction of what i once was. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2004|02:01 pm] |
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time for a change.... |
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[Jun. 27th, 2004|07:36 pm] |
leavin' for AC tomorrow. :)
i'm nervous and anxious and excited and....
well i hope it's a good time. |
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| more dylan |
[Jun. 25th, 2004|04:23 pm] |
They ask me how I feel
And if my love is real
And how I know I'll make it through.
And they, they look at me and frown,
They'd like to drive me from this town,
They don't want me around
'Cause I believe in you.
They show me to the door,
They say don't come back no more
'Cause I don't be like they'd like me to,
And I walk out on my own
A thousand miles from home
But I don't feel alone
'Cause I believe in you.
I believe in you even through the tears and the laughter,
I believe in you even though we be apart.
I believe in you even on the morning after.
Oh, when the dawn is nearing
Oh, when the night is disappearing
Oh, this feeling is still here in my heart.
Don't let me drift too far,
Keep me where you are
Where I will always be renewed.
And that which you've given me today
Is worth more than I could pay
And no matter what they say
I believe in you.
I believe in you when winter turn to summer,
I believe in you when white turn to black,
I believe in you even though I be outnumbered.
Oh, though the earth may shake me
Oh, though my friends forsake me
Oh, even that couldn't make me go back.
Don't let me change my heart,
Keep me set apart
From all the plans they do pursue.
And I, I don't mind the pain
Don't mind the driving rain
I know I will sustain
'Cause I believe in you. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2004|02:30 pm] |
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yay. i'm going to be selling jewelry at the franklin lakes peddler's fair on saturday. come visit. :) |
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[Jun. 12th, 2004|08:39 pm] |
i'm tired.
but it doesn't matter because i'm happy. :) |
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| i'm an asshole |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|01:08 pm] |
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i just don't know what to do. |
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| upon mel's request... |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|12:08 am] |
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I want anyone and everyone who reads this to post in here something they would like to do with me someday. |
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[May. 31st, 2004|11:41 am] |
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after a stressful saturday and a bland sunday (except for the evening) i'm going with jason to pick up jeff. *dances*...i need a hug so bad. and and well.....i kinda miss him. :) |
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| yoink |
[May. 30th, 2004|02:00 am] |
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[May. 24th, 2004|02:45 pm] |
So my hair is too short.
bleh.
i need a nap. :( |
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| so long briscoe. |
[May. 19th, 2004|01:54 am] |
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| | the string quartet tribute to jeff buckley. | ] |
:(
one of the best parts of law and order is gone as of tonight, er yesterday and that's sad. no more jerry orbach. ::sniffle::
of all the crap to happen TONIGHT, jeff accidentally spilled coffee all over his sidekick and now it's not functioning anymore...and, yes there's an and, i got a flat tire on the way home from his apartment. i hit a seriously sharp something or other on 287 that i didn't even see until it made a loud thud upon hitting it. i really thought that my tire was okay until i started to practically ride on the rim. so i called jeff because i'm a stupid girl sometimes. anyway, now i'll be riding on a donut for most of tomorrow. bleh.
anyway, i'm so beat. i've had like 10 hours of sleep in the past few days. i should sleep now. that would be lovely and fantabulous, but i'm full of coffee and almost TOO tired to sleep. phooey. |
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| isis |
[May. 15th, 2004|08:50 pm] |
she said where ya been?
i said no place special.
she said you look different.
i said well, i guess.
she said you been gone.
i said that's only natural.
she said you gonna stay,
i said if you want me to, yes. |
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| quote for today. :) |
[May. 6th, 2004|05:17 pm] |
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"Simply stated-my hidden agenda is to amaze myself." -Jerry Uelsmann. |
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